I cannot stress enough how very important this decision was and still is, not only in keeping clean and sober, but in my life as a whole. I decided to become a Christian again! When I decided to stop using drugs, I wanted to really turn my life around completely! I completely 100% turned my will and my life over to God. I let go of all control. I got out of the driver’s seat and climbed into the passenger’s seat, so to speak. I knew that was my answer. I had God in my life before, but I had turned my back on Him. It was time that I get down on my knees, which is what I did, and ask for His forgiveness. I confessed my sins, asked His forgiveness, and told Him that I wanted Him to take over in my life…that I wanted to do His will from now on, not mine. And, I meant every single word. Of course, God knew that. He knows every thought we have. From that moment on, He did what I had asked. He started leading the way. I didn’t have to feel like I had to know all the answers cause I don’t. I know He does and that’s one of the greatest parts. I just trust Him. Pretty simple, yet so important. I trust Him with everything! He is my Father. He wants what is best for me, He will provide for me, and He will lead the way.
I can’t even begin to explain what I consider to be miracles that have occurred since that day. God has done exactly what I had asked Him to do. He has been in the driver’s seat and I depend on Him completely. It would also be hard to accurately explain the amazing personal relationship I have with our Heavenly Father. I feel such a closeness to Him. And, what is so wonderful is that He wants that personal relationship with us. That is why He created us! Amazing!
If you haven’t yet made the decision to turn your life over to God and would like to, and would like to know Him more personally, I have a page that answers a lot of questions and explains exactly how you can do that. If you make that decision, I ask that you please contact me so I can pray for you. I will keep your name and information anonymous if you wish. I would just like to be there to answer any questions you might have, or just be able to keep you in my prayers.
“Yet to all who did receive Him, to those who believed in His name, He gave the right to become children of God” John 1:12