Quote For Today

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This is a quote I found this morning while reading a few pages out of a book by Joyce Meyer called Celebration of Simplicity. It is a great book!

“Pray for what God puts on your heart, not for what everyone else wants to put there.” ~Joyce Meyer

Heavenly Father, thank You for leading me to this book and this quote this morning. I know this was Your doing because it is exactly what I needed to hear (well, read) today. You and only You, Father know what it is in my heart. Thank You for guiding me and letting me know what I ought to pray for when I don’t even know what that is at times.

Faithful Blogging Prompt #67:

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Who has been the greatest influence in your spiritual life?

I have had several people who have been great influences in my spiritual life and I am lucky enough to continue to have more, even to this day which is a very good thing for me because I always need that. The first person that became a great influence in my spiritual life, other than my mom, was a friend of our family’s (who I will call Ralph). He was a preacher, or associate-preacher at our church. Him, his wife, and children were always very nice and I looked up to them. They always seemed happy. I did not know them well at the time, being so young, and we left that church for a while. I started visiting the church again as a teenager with one of my best friends and became very active in the youth group. Ralph was now the main pastor. The youth group went on outings, trips and  church camp. I began to see how extremely dedicated he was to the Lord and to his family and the church. This was encouraging to me since I did not have a dad in my life that showed those characteristics. I had been hurt by most of the men in my life and Ralph seemed to be one of the first men that did not want to hurt me. I did not continue to attend his church, yet I still knew that if I ever needed anything, he would be there for me. When that time came and I started to have serious questions about why my dad abused me and how my dad was still able to preach in a church and claim to believe in God, then say he didn’t believe in Him at all, I wrote Ralph a letter asking him these things. I was searching for these answers from anyone and everyone I thought might be able to help me. He wrote me back and tried to explain his beliefs about the situations and mainly what the Bible had to say about them. When my dad committed suicide, his funeral was on my fourteenth birthday. My mom was told that she was not welcome at my father’s funeral. Ralph volunteered to take me and my brother to the funeral and be there to support us. That meant the world to me. Ralph eventually quit pastoring the church to start a ministry. He visited with my grandma when she was dying from cancer and she decided to turn her life over to God because of these visits and discussions they had. I volunteered with his ministry and was able to spend quite a bit of time with him. I learned more about who he was and that he, like everyone else, had his own trials and struggles that he had dealt with in life, yet it seemed that his faith in God never wavered and that was amazing to me at the time. I had been so angry at God and so confused and Ralph helped me to understand, in a loving way, that even though I was a sinner and angry at God, God would still love me. He was able to show me through his own life, how God works. I still made many mistakes after my time volunteering and had a lot of anger, but I know that was the beginning of my spiritual journey and the reason I am where I am able to be today. I know that God sends people into our lives for all kinds of reasons. Ralph became a father figure to me and showed me that not all father’s hurt their daughters. He showed me that it was okay to trust and have faith in God because God would never, ever hurt me.

Anti-Stress Quotes

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  • “Fear can keep us up all night long, but faith makes one fine pillow.” ~Philip Gulley
  • “If you look into your own heart, and you find nothing wrong there, what is there to worry about? What is there to fear?” ~Confucius
  • “You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection.” ~Buddha
  • “Despair says I cannot lift that weight. Happiness says I do not have to.” ~James Richardson
  • “If you can’t sleep, then get up and do something instead of lying there worrying. It’s the worry that gets you, not the lack of sleep.” ~Dale Carnegie
  • “Put your trust in the Lord and go ahead. Worry gets you no place. ~Roy Acuft
  • “A day of worry is more exhausting than a week of work.” ~John Lubbock
  • “Worry is a cycle of inefficient thoughts whirling around a center of fear.” ~Corrie Ten Boom
  • “It is the little bits of things that fret and worry us; we can dodge an elephant, but we can’t dodge a fly.” ~Josh Billings
  • “Have compassion for all beings, rich and poor alike; each has their suffering. Some suffer too much, others too little.” ~Buddha
  • “I am an old man and have known a great many troubles, but most of them never happened.” ~Mark Twain
  • “The mind is its own place, and in itself can make a heaven of hell, a hell of heaven.” ~John Milton
  • “Stress is an ignorant state. It believes that everything is an emergency.” ~Natalie Goldberg
  • “The sovereign cure for worry is prayer.” ~William James
  • “Love looks forward, hate looks back, anxiety has eyes all over its head.” ~Mignon McLaughlin
  • “The time to relax is when you don’t have time for it.” ~Sydney J. Harris
  • “How much pain they have cost us, the evils which have never happened.” ~ Thomas Jefferson
  • “No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.” ~Eleanor Roosevelt
  • “Worrying is like a rocking chair, it gives you something to do, but it gets you nowhere.” ~Glenn Turner
  • “The greatest mistake you can make in life is to be continually fearing you will make one.” ~Elbert Hubbard

Where Is God?

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Where is God when my pain is strong
and I feel like I can’t go on
Does He stay by my side through all the hard times
or does He just leave and stay gone

Where is God when I am scared to death
and I don’t know where to turn
Does He walk next to me and keep me safe
or does He leave me alone to burn

Where is God when I am mourning a loss
and my heart has been broken in two
Does He carry me through these times
or does He expect me to know what to do

Where is God when my anger is rising
and I don’t know what to do
Does He help me to stay calm through these times
or does He sit back and watch the view

Where is God when I am happy for once
and my worries go away
Does He rejoice with me
or does He just leave for the day

Where is God when I am just living my life
Taking it day by day
I know where He is, He is right by my side
He always will be, in every way

~Written by Tabitha~

Bible Verse Discussion #4

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“Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly in all wisdom; teaching and admonishing one another in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing with grace in your hearts to the Lord.” Colossians 3:16

~I love this verse because it reminds me to keep God’s Word close to me at all times and to continue to be thankful and praise God always.

So Many Emotions

Fear still consumes me
even after all these years
I still wake up at nightemotions(1)
wiping away so many tears

Confusion is what fills my soul
I don’t know how I should feel
Sometimes I’m mad and sometimes I”m sad
But I’m hoping one day I’ll be healed

I don’t know who I should trust
or how to stop the stress
I wish I could love and be loved in return
I can’t accept anything less

God, please take the pain away
I’m ready to let it go
I need to have a normal life
I have to stop feeling so low

The memories I have will stay with me
This is something I’ll never forget
But I have to forgive and release it all
Hey, happiness, it’s about time we met

~Written by Tabitha~

A Poem For Doug

20121203-121716.jpgWhy am I so lost
I don’t know what to do
I think about you always
My feelings are nothing new
Since the day you left
My heart has not been whole
I have an emptiness inside
No one could take your role
I feel so helpless
I’m hurting inside
There’s nothing I can do
Why did you have to die
Now I can’t say I love you
I have no one to call my dad
You’re out of my life forever
My life just seems so sad
My anger is overflowing
It wasn’t your time to go
You took your own life
How could you do something so low
Selfish is how I describe you
You left without saying good-bye
Now I’m stuck here coping
Trying not to cry
But I am still so strong
I’ve made it through okay
I’m getting on with my life
Taking it day by day
I wish I had one last chance
So you could know how I feel
I wish you knew my pain
I wish that it wasn’t real

~Written by Tabitha~

 

What an Inspiration!

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I had to write this morning about how amazing it is to find new poetry and poets. I have been unbelievably inspired by about five blogs I have recently found. They have also visited my blog and we seem to all have more in common than just our poetry. It is amazing how God works to bring people together in life that need to be in some way. I have been so inspired by their poetry and it has made me feel refreshed to write more poetry again. I feel so blessed to have this place to share my experiences and, as someone recently said to me “cleanse my soul.” Thank you to everyone who visits my blog. You are taking a piece of me with you every time you read something I write because it truly comes from my heart.  God Bless you!

 

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Walking through the street of life

Challenges encountered

I began to think

A man can accomplish anything his heart desires

For to progress in life, it calls for a pressing forward

Determination, the gateway to distinction

 

Problems faced, stones thrown at me like a pronounced adulterer

I never fail to put my all

Zeal, a dynamic force of achievement in life

For it brings light out of the darkness

And vision to reality

 

Sitting on the stage of life

Dreams drenched, like a soaked cloth

Suddenly, it occur to me

Diligent hands bring wealth

A voice in my head commanded

Do your work and never follow vain persons

As there is no substitute for hard work

If you are not a worker

You will be a beggar

 

Living on lies

Sitting on the lap of luxuries of friends

Then, the truth dawned on me

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My List of Positive Affirmations

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I found an application on my iPod and it is for positive affirmations. I wanted to share some of my favorites. These are good to repeat to yourself and to post around your house and in other places also, such as your car or workplace. You could even print them out and add a little picture to go with them or just write them on a sticky note. As someone who struggles with low self-esteem, I look for ways to work on it so I thought I would share something I have found so here they are:

  • I am grateful for each experience in my life.
  • I am worthy.
  • I am beautiful, warmhearted and intelligent.
  • I am confident, cheerful and enthusiastic.
  • I am able to let go of my anger and speak from a place of love and kindness to those around me.
  • I will face my fears courageously today.
  • I accept and love me for who I am.
  • I am open to miracles every day.
  • I am willing to let go of the past and heal.
  • I can handle whatever comes my way.