Bible Verse Discussion #5

D33_5024The Bible Verse I am hoping to get some feedback about today is Isaiah 53:5-6. “But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was upon him, and by his wounds we are healed. We all, like sheep, have gone astray, each of us has turned to his own way; and the Lord has laid on him the iniquity of us all.”

~I am hoping to get more comments this time so that we may be able to finally get a discussion going. What really sticks out to me are the words “pierced and crushed and punishment”. Jesus went through horrendous torture and eventual death to pay the price for our sins, MY sins! It is still hard for me to imagine sometimes and to know how to express my gratitude towards God because I feel like I could never do enough to show Him how thankful I am that I have a chance to spend eternity at His side because He sent His Son to suffer and  die on the cross.

~Something else that I thought about while studying Verse 5: “…the punishment that brought us peace was upon him, and by his wounds we are healed.” That shows just how amazing God’s Grace really is. Also, in Verse 6 “We all, like sheep, have gone astray, each of us has turned to his own way; and the Lord has laid on him the iniquity of us all.”   ~Can you imagine? Someone else commits a crime and you pay the price? That is what happened with Jesus. This verse is saying that EVERY ONE OF US SIN. We all do and Jesus is the one who paid the price of every single one of our sins.

~This verse reminds me of a few things. First of all, I need to remember that sin is sin. There is not a big sin or little sin (in my view), sin is sin. The other reminder for me is to always be thankful. No matter how hard of a day I may be having, I always need to continue to show my gratitude towards the Lord for everything He has done, everything He is doing, and all that He will do in the future. It is because of Him and the sacrifices of His Son that I (we) have the chance at spending an eternity with Him in Heaven. Thank You, Lord!

Faithful Blogging Prompt #67:

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Who has been the greatest influence in your spiritual life?

I have had several people who have been great influences in my spiritual life and I am lucky enough to continue to have more, even to this day which is a very good thing for me because I always need that. The first person that became a great influence in my spiritual life, other than my mom, was a friend of our family’s (who I will call Ralph). He was a preacher, or associate-preacher at our church. Him, his wife, and children were always very nice and I looked up to them. They always seemed happy. I did not know them well at the time, being so young, and we left that church for a while. I started visiting the church again as a teenager with one of my best friends and became very active in the youth group. Ralph was now the main pastor. The youth group went on outings, trips and  church camp. I began to see how extremely dedicated he was to the Lord and to his family and the church. This was encouraging to me since I did not have a dad in my life that showed those characteristics. I had been hurt by most of the men in my life and Ralph seemed to be one of the first men that did not want to hurt me. I did not continue to attend his church, yet I still knew that if I ever needed anything, he would be there for me. When that time came and I started to have serious questions about why my dad abused me and how my dad was still able to preach in a church and claim to believe in God, then say he didn’t believe in Him at all, I wrote Ralph a letter asking him these things. I was searching for these answers from anyone and everyone I thought might be able to help me. He wrote me back and tried to explain his beliefs about the situations and mainly what the Bible had to say about them. When my dad committed suicide, his funeral was on my fourteenth birthday. My mom was told that she was not welcome at my father’s funeral. Ralph volunteered to take me and my brother to the funeral and be there to support us. That meant the world to me. Ralph eventually quit pastoring the church to start a ministry. He visited with my grandma when she was dying from cancer and she decided to turn her life over to God because of these visits and discussions they had. I volunteered with his ministry and was able to spend quite a bit of time with him. I learned more about who he was and that he, like everyone else, had his own trials and struggles that he had dealt with in life, yet it seemed that his faith in God never wavered and that was amazing to me at the time. I had been so angry at God and so confused and Ralph helped me to understand, in a loving way, that even though I was a sinner and angry at God, God would still love me. He was able to show me through his own life, how God works. I still made many mistakes after my time volunteering and had a lot of anger, but I know that was the beginning of my spiritual journey and the reason I am where I am able to be today. I know that God sends people into our lives for all kinds of reasons. Ralph became a father figure to me and showed me that not all father’s hurt their daughters. He showed me that it was okay to trust and have faith in God because God would never, ever hurt me.

Bible Verse Discussion #4

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“Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly in all wisdom; teaching and admonishing one another in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing with grace in your hearts to the Lord.” Colossians 3:16

~I love this verse because it reminds me to keep God’s Word close to me at all times and to continue to be thankful and praise God always.

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“In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself

intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express.” ~Romans 8:26

Starting Something New

I want to start posting a Bible verse or two occasionally. It will probably not be daily because I cannot commit to a daily post with having my seven-month old son. With this Bible verse, I thought it might be interesting to have other people leave a comment on what they might either think of the verse, what the verse means to them, maybe leave another verse it reminds them of, etc. Anything would be fine. I wanted to do this because I have so much to learn at this point in my life about the Bible and I thought it would be nice to see what other people’s thoughts might be also about some of these verses. If anyone would be interested, let me know. If not, that’s okay. I’m probably just going to post some verses anyway. 🙂

Here is my first one I’ll share that I love:
“For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Romans 8:38,39 NIV

 

Just Thinking Today…Postpartum Anxiety

I have been thinking a lot lately, about so many things. I am a new mom to a wonderful six and a half month old son and I know that has obviously been another huge life changing experience for me. I knew during my pregnancy that I was at a higher risk for postpartum depression because of already having Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder so I discussed it with my doctors and family and tried not to think about it. I was not on any medications during my pregnancy. I had been on several prior but I knew about the risks to my unborn child so I at least wanted to give it a good try at not taking any medications. I did exceptionally well while I was pregnant. In fact, I felt better than when I was on my meds, even while I had severe morning sickness and was having to empty my bladder every few minutes. Lol.

However, there was something I had not heard anything about. It is now interesting to me to think about how much information is given about postpartum depression and how little information, if any at all, is given about postpartum anxiety. I honestly had no idea that this even existed, until I started to go through it myself. I thought that I must be going crazy. It became severe very quickly. I wasn’t sleeping at night or anytime if my son was asleep because I was so fearful that he could die in his sleep. I was only able to rest if someone else was home with us too and was awake to make sure he was okay. I sought help immediately, although I wasn’t quite sure what was going on. Part of me believed that every new mom had the same fears, anxieties, etc. and I had people around me who were saying that to me. They just did not see how severe it was. I am sure that it is normal for every mom with a newborn, whether you have went through it before or not, to have fears, worries and anxieties. The difference is that I was starting to not be able to function. It was causing me to become sick emotionally, mentally and physically.

I agreed to start some medication, as long as it is only part of my treatment and only temporary. I no longer believe that I will have to take medications for the rest of my life to function. The treatment that I know is helping and will help the most in the end is counseling. I have went to counseling on and off for around twenty years or so and I have had several negative and a few positive experiences with it. Luckily, I believe the counselor I have now is a true Christian and things are going quite well. Things are still not easy. I do not believe that is how life works. Life will be easy when we get to Heaven.

It seems as if one area of my life starts to improve, a different area is starting to go downhill. I think God has a way of making sure that we still remember Him and to stay close to Him. I know for me, if things are going too well, it is easy for me to get off track where it comes to my relationship with God. I do my best to feel fortunate for the difficult times as well as the good because I know when things are not going as well for me, I always reach towards God. Now I just have to work a little more on praising Him just as much when things are tough.